0006: "But still the second hand will catch us like it always does..."

[rewritethepast]

To everyone else: Good luck sa UPCAT. Ganbatte! ^_^

***

Drunk at 3:48 pm in the afternoon. Self, you are absolutely pathetic.

Thank you, self. Thank you very much. Thank god I still have a few hours to sober up before UPCAT. And at least I can type correctly even while drunk.

Econ Perio ate my brain. The triple E's in Math Perio fried me. And English... who gives a damn as to who was the hundred-eye watchman?

Obviously, I'll fail something this quarter. And it's got Econ written all over it.

Although STR is a not so distant contender...

I can't get energized about anything. I keep thinking of STR, of UPCAT, of tomorrow being the single most important day in my high school life as it will determine my near future...

And I sleep. I goddamn sleep.

I miss my brother too much. I don't think I was fun at all at the Pota party because all I could think of was my brother, and how I'll never see him again for the next years to come. I know that he needs to get an MBA and all, but I miss him.

It's stupid, and it won't explain my drunkeness to my parents, who'll probably skin me alive for doing so.

But I'm the black sheep in the family, and I guess it'll always stay that way right? After all, it's their fault why I'm Rh-negative, like 15% of the world. >_<

And he broke my heart yesterday. And the day before. And all the days before that.

No wonder I couldn't comphrehend anything in Econ.

***

If I wasn't sure that I was in love with him, I'm definitely sure now.

Because even if he defames me, or tells me I'm stupid, or laughs at me I still love him. Even if I see him do drugs or skip class or other hardcore things that I've done that I hope no one else will be as stupid as me to do, I still love him. Even if he tells me that I suck at Physics I'd still give up everything in my life for him.

What's the point of life anymore?

Damn you, third year. Why'd I have to fall in love then?

Comments

[ancientdaggers.livejournal.com]

You are an angst filled person and I grow more frightened of you as we go along. Calm, child, calm. If it's any comfort, I slept instead of studying for the UPCAT too. Slept instead of studying for the perio for that matter. Hates self for that.
Chiii.

[rewritethepast.livejournal.com]

Ah well. Sleep = good. Meep meep meep meep meep.